funk

I feel kind of reckless. And now vain because all I ever do is talk about myself which makes me feel odd and embarrassed. I'm in a funky mood right now where everything's a glaze and I don't know what I'm supposed to want. I don't know what I want and I rarely try to think about it. A lot of times you don't know you would have wanted something unless you try it. I usually just do things and assume I will be happy once I'm finished and can think about them in retrospect. Could you live your whole life doing things you think you will be happy about in the future? I guess that's what people do.